New Job

Hey guys. Today i went to give an application letter and the curriculum vitae to a course at Cemara Asri. I was offered by my friend to replace her working at that course. The work is as a teacher. They need a person who good enough in English. Most of students there is from CK (Chandra Kusuma) school.

At the first time, i was not interested in working. You know? I've never worked before. And never crossed my mind that i'll work in my young age. Even i never helped my mommy doing house work. I'm totally NO for working.

But then suddenly, dunno why i'm thinking about it again. I wanna have working experience. Some of my friends has already worked too. And it just feels so interesting. Can earn money by ourselves. Feels like we're so mature and independent.

I wanna feel the feeling like that too. I wanna have my own money, money that i get with my sweat. So, i asked my parents opinion about it. They allowed me with a note that i must not ignore my school exam or homework. So that my rank at school won't decline.

But something that made me offended, mommy and daddy think that i can't work. They said seems like i can work just about one week. I won't survive.

Okay, well, i know i'm kinda spoiled and careless girl. I can't do anything well. But i'll prove everyone that a Sylvianita can make people amazed too. I'll show who i am actually :) 

Moreover i have learned English for so many years. Since i'm in primary school. It's useless if i don't use my English knowledge to earn money, right?

My bf worries about my health if i work. He doesn't wanna me too tired if should work. But i plan to work for just one month. Just for fun and have new experience. Gotta make him sure i'm gonna be okay. hehe

I hope they would consider about my educational background which is good enough and call me soon to set an interview.

So, this is my junior high school national exam result.

8,9,8,9

good marks yeah. haha

My certificate of completion in my course. They are 3. Kindergarten English(2 years), then English for beginners(3 years) and English for teens(3 years). I'm going to get the certificate for the next class soon.

They ask to enclose my report at school but my report is not with me now. It's with school so i gave them this charter award instead.

I got this coz got the second rank when junior high school. Actually the first semester 1 got the first rank. But when semester 2 i got the second rank. That's why the charter became the second rank. Kinda pity yeah? The charter should be the first rank.

But it's getting worse when entered senior high school. I really lost my mood in studying. I stopped my math,physics and chemistry course. And my rank decliner, decliner and decliner. But i still feel happy. Find my love in senior high school. XD ♥ 

Oh ya, about my blacberry. I don't feel like using that BB anymore. I prefer using Nokia. More resilient. But just see later. I'm gonna sell my BB first and buy the new one again later.

I'm ready to have a job.!

Chocolate

Auntie and my cousin just come back from SG. They bought us chocolates as gift. Wiw. Can't wait to eat that lovely chocolate anymore. Moreover i need chocolate now. To give me spirit and make me calmer.

I'm so tired to the max, readers. Dizzy thinking about my mobile phone. That blackberry really annoys me. Hueee.

I hope everything's gonna be okay SOON. I beg :(

Well, i'm not in a mood for talking a lot of things like i do usually.

See you readers :)

love chocolate

A letter to God.

Dear God,

As you know, that i have a plan for this weekend. I'm gonna do something that i think i should've done before since i've been able to do it. But i still keep thinking about it. Because i realized it would not be good if we're too forcing something. Patience is the key to satisfaction.

And now, i've been convinced.

I wish you would bless my plan and brought it to my real life. I've been waiting for so long. Ummm, about half a year. That long time has already enough to make me sure. I hope everything would run smoothly. I get what i want and life will be so GOOD. No more tears, sadness and goodbye suffering ;)

People can make plans, but God who determines.!

The bad beginning

Oh well, guys. What should i say about today. From the title above you've already can guess it's a bad day. The first day of April. The April fools day. It should be a great day. But evidently it's not at all :/

I won't tell you anything. About what happened to me today. Just skip that part and forget it. Now, we move to another topic.

Still about April. I wanna share about my wish list for this month.

✖ Have last long relationship. It's almost 15 months ♥

✖ Be healthier. Especially my stomach.

✖ Gain weight. About 3 kilograms. I'm slim, but not plump enough.

✖ Have longer hair. Kinda regret i cut my hair when CNY. Longer hair is nicer. We can shape it more. Make it curly, straight, whatever.

✖ Have thicker hair. My hair is kinda thin that's why i wanna have thicker hair. Luckily it's black enough.

✖ Have self-control. Dunno why i'm kinda moody now. Omg.! This is not me. I'm not used to be like that.

✖ Be more diligent. Or my report book will be burnt. Even though there is no red mark in my report so far.

✖ Be blessed, happiness around me and special wish. I wish ** could back and no much longer i'll get **********

Okay, that's all. Anyway, happy april fools day readers. Before it's over, trick people around you. Today is the day for it :p The first person who tricked me is Tina. Haha 

Hope this April will be a good month for me and you too.

Wishing on the falling star ☆

This Pain

Whoaaa. Evidently holiday is not as exciting as i thought before. Well, it feels so boring here. Stay at home; just sit in front of this notebook doing things i even dunno for what. Keep rebloging photos in tumblr, changed tumblr appearance and anything else that useless just for wasting time. Okay, I don't wanna have a too long holiday. Rest for me has already enough. Don't let me be rusty at home for 11 days more.

So now, how..?? I need an exciting activity that can relieve boredom but not tiring.

Moreover now my head feels like wanna explode. Too many things in my mind. It's over limit. Totally sickening. I can't stand to be like this anymore. I lost many things because of it. I lost my smile, my mood, my laughter, my freedom.

Problems come without stop. Like punish me of every bad things i've ever done. I should fight and it doesn't let me to take a rest. I've been tired. Please let me relax just for a while. Can't you?

Yeah. I'm unfortunate girl. A stupid girl with all her dreams that will not come true. I should have known it. I shouldn't give a hope anymore. Now, it's so hurt. Here. This pity heart wanna shout out loudly "What an unfair life.!"

When? I'm wondering when i can go out from all of this and how long i should waiting? Huh? Waiting for the thing that doesn't clear. But i don't give up,right? I still keep waiting. But how much longer? I need a certainty.

Not only that. People around me are so annoying these days. Everyone seems ask me to make a quarrel. What the hell is this? I'm still sixteen(haven't seventeen). And i'm not strong enough to face all of this.

Please everything go back like before. Please don't change. Stay for me.

All this time i just forcing my laugh and faking my smile. I'm not okay. I hope someone knows it.

Outside smiling,inside crying (dying)

2010 ends

as we know today is the last day of 2010. time flies so fast.

well, thanks to 2010 for the precious time i had and for every experience i got in 2010. especially that i had one year together with HIM during the 2010. truly grateful for it :)

so, goodbye 2010 and welcome 2011. hope 2011 would be a great year for me and for everyone. be blessed and happiness is always around us :)

my new year wishes:

- have a lasting long relationship ever ♥

- get my Christmas wish. God hasn't fulfilled it but i believe no longer :)

- be blessed always.

- be a better person.

- have self-control. could control my emotion well.

- could make my parents proud of me. make them happy :')

- still have a sweet friendship with people around me. Omg! i'm so miss my buddies :(

- getting diligent. i was so lazy all this time. haha

- getting smart. 

- have an amazing year.

and because today is the last day. gonna enjoy today with my dearest boyfriend and have a great new year's eve with my beloved families.

have fun too readers :)

welcome 2011 ♥

xoxo

Indonesia ♥

hey football mania especially Indonesia national team fans, there :)

well, this post is dedicated for my lovely country national team. i don't interested with Indonesia football actually. i'm just love Spain national team. love TORRES♥ but since i known IRFAN BACHDIM, i became one of their fans. he's so handsome and great. "keeps shinning and last long with your girl, Jennifer Jasmin Kurniawan yeah" xoxo

i've just watched the final of AFF cup which took place at Bukit Jalil Stadium, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. the match was so cool even our team lost. unexpected thing happened when the second round. about laser and firecracker from Malaysia supporters graced the match and became trending topics on twitter and facebook also. #malaysiacheatlaser

to be honest, i disappointed with the result. 3-0. so hurt for Indonesian. but it's okay. they've done their best as well. we should be proud with their achievement throughout this tournament. a single failure will not tarnish their achievement. they still great :')

we still have chance. i bet once again on Indonesia. wait for the next final match between Indonesia and Malaysia on 29 at GBK. hope would be better. we'll show them how the fairplay is. no laser or firecracker cuz we're honorable people. agree.? :)

God bless you Indonesia ♥

what a cute guy, right? ;)

I ♥ Indonesia

December,25

hello world ♥ it's Christmas.

first of all i wanna say Merry Christmas :)

wherever you are, hope all your dreams and wishes come true. be blessed always and enjoy today with joy with your families, relatives or your buddies. be happy. xoxo

 

(my Christmas tree)

 

Happy day ♥

231210♥

yesterday i went to SUN plaza with my cousin and my sister. it has been a long time i don't hang out with them. just the three of us.

it was a happy day :)

i captured many photos and here are some of them. see more in my facebook album:

Sister Time ♥

tonight is Christmas Eve. have you planned about your Christmas Eve party? :)

me ---> gonna have supper in another cousin's house. celebrate Christmas Eve together with them ♥

wish God would fulfill my Christmas wish. Amen.

well, tomorrow i have planned to go to church to celebrate Christmas. but seems that i couldn't. coz my foot is still hurt. no doubt. i use heels for walking around SUN for 4 hours :(

and new year eve is coming too. i still don't have plan about it. but i'll not stay at home.

daddy planned to go to brastagi actually. but i refused it. daddy said we go there on 30 until 2. i don't wanna go. 2 is my special day. i have to spend it with HIM♥. nothing can prevent me. it would be stuck there on that days too. and dad hate traffic jam. so, i suggest dad for not going to Brastagi anymore. just celebrate new year eve dinner with his friends.

success. yeah.! haha

i haven't take a bath anyway. and Harris has nagged me of it. well, i have to take a bath now before he gets angry. he's kinda fierce now. haha

see you readers :)

happy Christmas eve people ♥

my holiday

Brief Outpouring

   recent update on facebook:

► people who have taken your happiness, almost killed you because they took your soul away. am i still don't have the right to call them "evil"?
I'm not a vindictive person. I'm just not able to forgive.
(24 minutes ago)

► I repeat once again. all of you must pay for this all..!!
(18 hours ago)

► I am SYLVIANITA. I am a strong girl with my stubbornness. write it on your note. bold and underline it.!
(Thursday at 11:18pm)

► ♪ there's no time for tears. i'm just sitting here planning my revenge ♪
(Thursday at 11:12pm)

► You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day.! it will be damn cool. why don't you all give a try?
(Thursday at 10:52pm)

► see? what all of you have done to me? do you realize that you have destroyed the happiness of a poor little girl? i wonder if you all have a heart or not, if you have kindness even just a little or not. i don't have any idea. one conclusion i get is all of you don't have compassion with others.! how cruel you guys.!
do you think you still deserve to be forgiven after all you've done?
(Thursday at 10:47pm)

► If turned into good, does not matter. but if turn out worse.?? !?
Be careful to use mouth to promise. coz another heart will hurt. better shut up.!
(Thursday at 10:12pm)

► and here you're with your temper-again. well,~
♪ i'm sick and tired of your attitude. i'm feeling like i don't know you. you tell me that you love me then cut me down ♪
you should know "patience has limits too, honey".!
(Thursday at 9:20pm )

► I'll take back thing you've taken from me. you should know that it belongs to me and i will not allow anyone to take it from my side anymore.
i need time to give forgiveness.
(Thursday at 2:09pm)

► So you don't have to call anymore. I won't pick up the phone. This is the last straw. There's nothing left to beg for. And you can tell me that you're sorry. But I don't believe you, baby. Like I did before.
You're not sorry ♪♪
(December 14 at 10:23pm)

well, I think you can guess what happened to me. I don't know if this is wrong or not. if I had made a mistake or not to behave like this. for me, I did nothing wrong. but in the eyes of people? i don't know. no one understands me. I stand alone with this two legs. I've already tired.

but if the fact is i'm wrong, i wish God would realize me soon about it, open my heart to give forgiveness and make me forget everything.

a little girl with her hurt

my Christmas wish

we live in this world with all hypocrisy and problems. nobody lives here with guarantee that his life's easy. we can't always get what we want. all our dreams may not come true. we just can cry and fill a day with tears or keep wishing on a wishing star. maybe it isn't come true today. but there's still have a chance to give a try and say NO for "give up". but the point now, can everyone of us survive with condition like this? is it possible if we don't "give up"?

feeling pain of inability, down for ever lose, tired to give a try, sick of every single thing in life, life seems meaningless at all, you don't have a shoulder to lean on, you don't have place to hide, hopeless, nobody's here with you, you're alone, you have to rely yourself to keep standing, you should not trust anyone without exception.

yeah. this life ain't easy at all.

i can't get a thing i want. whereas others get it easily without need to work hard. i really understand that kind of feeling. let me tell you. it's so hurt. and i believe that none of us here never deal with a problem like that.

it's december. and Christmas is coming. God, if you keeps your eyes on me all this time. i have no doubt you totally know and understand what i'm dealing with exactly. i fight with myself inside my heart. this war has begun since i got that news. you know i'm not able to face this. i'm the weakest and i confess i'm a loser.

for this Christmas, i wish You would fulfill my prays. gives me "that". what i want for this Christmas is just it. i must get it. not only for my satisfaction. but this kinda important for my life, for my future. i don't expect more. just it. i beg You. i'm gonna think a way to clear this up. coz i've been too messy now. i spent my days keep thinking about it. this makes me depressed. really. i can't stand if have to be like this much longer.

Christmas wish

short farewell

i'm going to have my semester exam on monday. the exam lasted for a week. this weekend is my last time to relax. even from today i have to study for preparing the exam.

start from tomorrow noon, i'm gonna off from all my online activities. tumblr-ing, blog-ing, facebook-ing and all things i usually do. i have to focusing myself. mommy would not allow me to plays laptop too. no need to ask her anymore. i've got the answer by myself.

so perhaps this is my last post for this week and next week at once. i'm gonna miss you readers :(

wish i could pass the exam well and got satisfying result. amen. help me by pray yeah. thanks :)

after exam finished is already holiday. there are two mix feeling in my heart. i'm glad cz will not get stress of busy school activities and christmas is coming. it's my happy time. i always rejoices when it comes and brings along peace, happiness and new spirit for me. i just can't wait the warm christmas eve. dear santa, please visit my house although my house doesn't has chimney XD hohoho ♫♫♫

after christmas. we'll have new year. wohooooo. so wait new year comes. wait my first year anniversary exactly. 2 january. waiting ♥

but in the other hand i'm sad can't meet all my friends for approximately one month. can't laughing together, playing jokes and making crazy for temporarily time. i'll miss my class surely. badly.

well, i hate to say this. we're going to have short farewell. goodbye readers. see ya next two weeks. love you :* BIG~HUG ♥

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my last post :')

sayangg's birthday xx

22 november

today's harris's birthday. the 16th one. joyeux anniversaire :D   

well, hope God always bless him, gives him happiness and all things he needs. i wish all his dreams come true too. be maturer and be nita's harris forever yeah, beib ♡

i gave him a wallet for this year birthday. last year i gave him a mug.

i don't know what gift's ideal for a guy actually. so confuse. i decided to buy wallet is the suggestion from my friends (boy).

before i gave him the present, i asked him to pay me 100 rupiah. as if he buy that wallet from me. not i give him.

mommy ever told me that there are some gifts we may not give to people. one of them is "wallet". something like "taboo". you are not allowed to give it to people. coz it will give bad effect for your relationship with that people who receive it. like the beginning was friend then can become enemy.

but this is just for people who believe in "taboo". i don't believe "taboo" actually. but i'm just worry and don't want anything happen to me and him. moreover our relationship. so, just do this "taboo". it will not make us loss too right?  :)

i don't know if you like this or not. but this one is the latest. have just come. so, i didn't think too much anymore when bought it. i took it to the cashier directly. hope you like it yeah ♥ really hope you'll. huhu

happy birthday Harris.. ♪♪ happy birthday Harris.. ♪♪ happy birthday.. ♪♪ happy birthday.. ♪♪

happy birthday sayangg ♥ ♪♪♪

muachhh :* xx

♥ ɹɐɥ noʎ ǝʌoן ı

the latest story

today's joyanti's birthday. her 17th. this will be a very nice moment for her. so, enjoy it honeey :)

tonight, am going to go to her party. at lembur kuring :9 i have prepared my dress, bag, shoes and another accessories. not forget the present too. hope she likes it ya. just left this hair. don't know how to make it. ckck but it's not too important to think too much. the important one is we'll have fun tonight. waiting for 5PM ♥

yesterday mommy and sister went to visit doctor. mom had her body checked and my sister's tooth pulled out. ouchhhh :( i can't imagine how's the feel like. so scary. the bad news is mom plans to take me to the doctor and pull out my teeth too. coz when i patched my teeth, the previous doctor said there are some of my teeth that don't neat. how if the doctor said i must have wire teeth then? i'll not AGREE till i die. iyuuuiii.

i don't want to have wire teeth. so suffering. huhu i pray that mom will listen to me to stop this crazy plan. no need to pull out me teeth. moreover install wire teeth. my teeth isn't come out. just some of them grow don't neat. eventhough without wire teeth, i don't look ugly too.

wanna tell you readers. so bad recent. all unexpected things happened to me. this amazing life suddenly turn become a hell. am tired. i give all up to you, God. i'm just hope everything's gonna be okay :/

happy idul adha for those who celebrate it :)

jo's happy day ♥

亲爱的妈妈 ♥

dear beloved mommy,

mom, i'm sixteen now. i'm not your little girl anymore and i guess i have matured enough to decide all things by myself. i take the responsibility of all decisions i made. i can differentiate which one's wrong and which one's right. trust me :) 

you don't need to over-protective to me. it gets on my nerves. this is my life, mom. not yours. i'm your child. you may manage me whatever you want. but you should know. i have my own life. i have my world that you can't understand it. i want to learn all things by myself. face this world alone, standing on my foot, solve all problem with my own hands, wake up by myself when i fell, loving someone and all things i've never done by myself.

oh ya, wanna complain two things from you. i mind the way you complain about my weight. you nag me every time i'm so thin, like to choose foods to eat, doesn't want eat this-eat that. to tell you the truth,i don't wanna thin like this too. i tried to gain my weight. but feels like i can't fatter anymore. so, what should i do again?

and the other thing. you said i lose my appetite coz too busy of my laptop. i don't always touch my laptop yeah. i have course and school activities make me busy. i don't spend too much time for this laptop. except holiday or sunday. if you don't believe it. you may keep your eyes on me while touching this laptop. how long in one day. count it.

i know you love me so much so that you treat me like this. but really. i don't need it. i hope you can understand this well and not misunderstanding.

love you mom ♥♥ :* warmhug*

your daughter,

ling-ling王

my land's crying

deep condolences for our country.

so many disasters happened recently. be blessed, indonesia.

keep praying for mentawai and mount merapi victims. wish all the best and everything's gonna be okay soon.

all we like sheep have gone astray. each of us turning our own separate way. we have all sinned and fallen short of Your Glory. but Your Glory is what we desire to see and in Your presence is where we long to be, Oh Lord, show us Your mercy and grace, take us to Your holy place. forgive our sin and HEAL OUR LAND. we long to live, in Your presence once again...

dear God, listen to our prays. forgive our sins and HEAL OUR LAND.

Amen.

indonesia grieving

waiting the day ♥

Omg! Omg! Omg! :)

it's october end ♥ am waiting these days come to bring happiness to me.

well, i still remember my october wish last year. i don't want to talk about this actually. but i don't know why it feels like i can't stop talking about it. i'm stupid. yeah. i am :( but forget it. just unimportant flashback.

to tell you the truth, i haven't known my wish for this year. still thinking about it.

certainly, i'll have fun on this october end :) can't wait the day comes-my dating appointment ♥

ummmm... what else? oh no. i guess i'm blank now :$ sorry readers. my body isn't too fit. the flu and cough are killing me and make my night like hell ==" what a terrible cold :(

thanks for reading :*

happy october :)

get well soon

i was so sad. my friend, Valens was sick :'( he didn't go to school today. seems that he got symptoms of typhus. and he is going to has treatment in Jakarta. maybe he could come back to school on monday.

i pray to God for him. readers, do you mind to pray for him too? thanks for your sincerity :)

get well soon, palenn. class is not fun without you :(

we miss you...

good luck :)

I'm Home

Hola :)

Last night I've came back to Medan. Yeah. Just one day in Brastagi. It's better don't too long stay there. Nothing. Just to anticipate The Sinabung mountain. Beside that, tomorrow is the DAY. The wedding. So we should get back soon. Many things have to managed. From the catering, decoration, saloon till the gown and etc. And we should help my auntie to prepare all.

In these photos is my Angel cece. She is so pretty ♥ and the second photo is with my sister. They are so cute,right?

The photos were taken by me ;) in front of our villa.

Angel cece will go to Bangkok with her boyfriend this 18. And after from bangkok, they go back to Jakarta :( 2 days left. I wish to spent this two days well with her.

P.S  Happy Bday for my friend Kenny Wijaya. Be blessed always :)

Love Angel cece ♥ 

PERFECT ♡

You're so perfect.. So beautiful in my eyes.. You make me will always adore you.. In my every step, I always thinking about you.. I can't imagine my life without your love.. Don't leave me.. Will not able to face all.. Only with you, I able.. You're my blood.. You're my heart.. You're my life.. Fill me.. Oh my dear you are so.. My dear you're so PERFECT..

(English version by me)

I love this song lots. Beside the lyrics which so touching. I have personal reason why love this song lots. If YOU read this. I guess YOU'll understand what i mean.

Yesterday,Harris suddenly sang this song for me. Remind me about "something". Drive me crazy with this song again. Hahaa

Well, Actually, This song related with my past. My past life that so like heaven. But it has already gone. Real world is walking now. I may not step back.

Anyway, Happy Sunday for all of you. Rest, Fun, Enjoy, Gathering. =D

Oh ya, Happy anniversary too for 2 my friends who celebrate it today. Keep Langgeng. Happy love. ♥♡

Perfect Love