we live in this world with all hypocrisy and problems. nobody lives here with guarantee that his life's easy. we can't always get what we want. all our dreams may not come true. we just can cry and fill a day with tears or keep wishing on a wishing star. maybe it isn't come true today. but there's still have a chance to give a try and say NO for "give up". but the point now, can everyone of us survive with condition like this? is it possible if we don't "give up"?
feeling pain of inability, down for ever lose, tired to give a try, sick of every single thing in life, life seems meaningless at all, you don't have a shoulder to lean on, you don't have place to hide, hopeless, nobody's here with you, you're alone, you have to rely yourself to keep standing, you should not trust anyone without exception.
yeah. this life ain't easy at all.
i can't get a thing i want. whereas others get it easily without need to work hard. i really understand that kind of feeling. let me tell you. it's so hurt. and i believe that none of us here never deal with a problem like that.
it's december. and Christmas is coming. God, if you keeps your eyes on me all this time. i have no doubt you totally know and understand what i'm dealing with exactly. i fight with myself inside my heart. this war has begun since i got that news. you know i'm not able to face this. i'm the weakest and i confess i'm a loser.
for this Christmas, i wish You would fulfill my prays. gives me "that". what i want for this Christmas is just it. i must get it. not only for my satisfaction. but this kinda important for my life, for my future. i don't expect more. just it. i beg You. i'm gonna think a way to clear this up. coz i've been too messy now. i spent my days keep thinking about it. this makes me depressed. really. i can't stand if have to be like this much longer.
Christmas wish
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