14th month ♥

Today is the 14th month (one year +  two months) me with my lovely bf. It has been such a long time. Yeah. I’m so glad and grateful of course. He's a good guy. Really lucky to have a bf like him. I love him to the bones. Haha

Thank you for all the superb time, titi kecik ♥ (that’s my love nickname for him. It came coz i'm older than him about one month. Not exactly one month. I'm 27th oct and he's 22nd nov. Haha)

ILHSM (I love HARRIS so much) & always do honey :* Wanna you to be THE LAST for me. Thinking about my future with you* Omg.! It's like a happy ending in a fairytale :p

(For the last picture, it's quite true. Coz the first time i was his bestfriend. Then suddenly he loved me and that sweet friendship turned become LOVE)

happy anniversary =)

SN♥HKT

Hope we'll last long yeah

Ps. I know maybe i can't cheer you up. I don't have any idea about it. But hope you know that in my eyes, in my heart you are THE BEST. You've done the best and i really PROUD of you. I proud to have a bf like you. Your personalities are really charming. Nobody's like you. You have thing that everyone doesn't has :)

Today is still awesome even not goes like our hope. Thanks. Really thanks.

There is still a chance for those who believe it. Just need to be patient. Don't afraid to lose for several times or even all time. Coz defeat is the way to be a winner. Keep moving on.!

I always here supporting you in every step you take ♥ 

You & me are FOREVER

This is our LOVE STORY♥

Barongsai

Hey readers, last night around 9 PM Barongsai finally came to my house. Actually since afternoon the Barongsai has already in my neighborhood. But still quiet far away from my house.

Anyway, Do you know? When i was a child, I was so afraid with Barongsai. I even cried if saw Barongsai in front of my eyes. But since i've grown up, I don't afraid of Barongsai anymore. Hehe

I took some photos of the Barongsai. Sorry if the photos are kinda dark cuz you know by yourself that it's night. Moreover i didn't use flash. Shy* to use flash. Later people who was watching Barongsai will look at me. Hehe

I recorded the video too. The video is so cute. There is one moment when the barongsai ate* a baby (just the head actually. the baby is my neighbor's son) So sweet ♥ The baby was smiling and laughing with the Barongsai. I wanna upload the video here. But i dunno why it didn't work. I've tried many times, but it didn't make any difference. Dunno what's wrong with this blogger.

But photo has already enough i guess :)

 

 

 

Oh yaa, tomorrow my class is gonna have basketball OSIS match. I wish my class would win the match. Cuz i know they can and they have already practiced well :)

Special support for HIM ♥

This is the second year i give him support in the same match.

Tomorrow is Cap Goh Meh.!

bad news

it's cloudy. gray over here and over there. kinda chilly. i haven't seen my sun along this day. the weather today has explained everything. sadness, disappointment, hopeless, and every single thing that hurt our feelings.

i bring bad news, readers. from my stupid desire until my remedial. i'm totally bad. all people disappointed with the result. including me of course. this ain't fair. people who studied and didn't study got the same result. REMEDIAL. it's absurd. if we know the result's gonna be like this, we'll not study too. coz just the same, right? wanna add something. i don't agree about checking exam with computer system. we have to circle the answers blackly. if there are several answers that aren't too black and computer can't detected it, computer will not count that number as true although your answer is true. see? not effective although it's modern and sophisticated but it's detrimental to students.

remedial waste my time and also reduce my holiday. makes me scolded by my parents is the worst. damn!

fortunately, i have someone who always support me and cheer me up. he's an angel. so kind, helpful and the most touching is he never angry with me all this time. he makes me stronger. yeah. he's a great boyfriend. and he's mine ♥ should be grateful for this :')

i've already depressed. now remedial add more burden to me again. i remember this song lyric. 

"God will make a way, where there seems to be no way"

but where is the way out for me? where is the guidance from God?

disappointed

that girl

envy. how hurt that feeling is ...

i'm envy with that girl. her life seems so amazing. she has boyfriend and many friends. i don't doubt. coz she is kind and pleasant. i guess her boyfriend loves her so much. what a perfect life. i wanna have a life like her.

nothing's special from her actually. she's just a simple girl like others. but something in her attract me. i don't know what is it exactly. maybe her simplicity makes her special. i don't have idea if people have the same opinion with me or not.

i confess i'm envy. she is good at socializing, beautiful, kind, helpful, loving, adorable. all people love her. including me.

i love to be myself whoever i am. i don't lose my self-confidence. but i can't hold not to envy with her. i run to my room. looked to the mirror. and started thinking what's special from me. i haven't found anything yet. just negative thoughts in my mind (i'm nothing compared to her. it's ridicules) i know nobody's perfect. although seems she's perfect. i believe that she has her weakness too. and me. definitely there is something special from me. although i'm careless, selfish, stubborn, lazy, pessimist, rebel, etc. i just haven't realize it. 

that girl gives me motivation indirectly. but i'm too selfish to take her as my role model. i prefer to fight with myself to show the world that i'm special, better than her. i sure i can. how stubborn right? it's me. SYLVIANITA!

i'll do my best in my life.

1st october

hello october ♥

for this new month. i have many things on my list. the point is i wanna change my attitude, my bad habit, change my character to be better :) especially my emotion. i often get mad because of little thing. even not angry for a long time. i wonder how's harris feeling when i got mad to him for just a simple thing. this shows that i'm not mature at all. i able to think mature but my character doesn't :(

i really have to change this. before all things that i have now will go away from me :( oh yaa, i wanna gain my weight too. i'm too thin. my mommy said so. but some of my friends said that my weight is ideal. i don't think so. i'm just 45 kg :/

 

well, today i was not going to my course. coz i went for fixed my laptop. the bluetooth was henk. i've just gone back here. wanna take a nap but it has been late. i can't sleep for one or two hour. i can't wake up later. i have to sleep for 4 hour. LOL

i have to do some "work" too. this is special work. for HIM. sssssssttttttt ;)

goodbye september

about L.O.V.E

"Walking on a path of air

See your faces everywhere

As you melt this heart of stone

Living in a world so cold

You are there to warm my soul

You came to mend a broken heart

You gave my life a brand new start and now

I really love you"

These words were made by one of my friend. He love a girl but can't reveal it. He told me that he really wanna say like that to the girl. And so hopeless "when he could?".

So sad heard about that. I wanna help him but i can't do anything except always support him.

If someone reveal his love to me by saying so romantic words like that. I'll definitely be :') and honoured. How lucky the girl is actually. But love?? Too complicated to figure out.

I wish all the best for him.

That's love.

Heaven and hell in one package :|

I really thanks to God that give me chance to feel about love and have someone who always stand beside me.

I'll keep this love well and never let it go away from me ♥

By the way, tonight i'll go again.

So tired. But the good news is. Today i'm freed from my course. Yeay :) what A LIFE.

So, I'll have a short nap this afternoon before go to saloon.

I'll go to bed now.

See you, bloggers :)

Hold your love tightly :)

Haircut, wedding and holiday ends

Today's the wedding. Am so tired. I woke up early this morning. Went to saloon to washed my hair there and had face make up-ed. After that go to my auntie house. Tomorrow I'll go to saloon again to make curly hair. The wedding reception is on tomorrow night :/

I wanna sleep till noon on the last day of my holiday. But can't. How poor :(

(The hair after go back from saloon)

(Eye shadow, Mascara, Eyebrow pencil, Blush on, Lip Gloss)

(The dress)

(The result)

I had my hair cut yesterday,anyway. 3 days saloon-ing. Yesterday for cut hair, this morning and tomorrow afternoon :O

Oh yes,does It look a bit weird? If so, maybe coz it's still short. Wish it grew long quickly. I don't have my stupid-poni anymore. I cut it and decided to make it beside. I wanna be mature. Sylvianita learns to be mature. Have poni like this will make me look maturer and can motivate me. I hope so.

School starts tomorrow. The holiday is not long enough. I HATE to go to school. That shit seat. Really destroy my mood!!!!

Whatever..

Don't think about it  too much. I hope I could :|

Be happy always :)