Showing posts with label past. Show all posts
Showing posts with label past. Show all posts

Friday, March 25, 2011

Bring "it" back

Today i did a little mistake. I don't think it's a mistake actually. But, yeah just a little remorse that it annoyed him. So, sorry. I didn't mean like that and didn't know it would annoy.

I should realize what i have now lest i lose everything and regret. I really know about it. Like i said, I didn't mean like that. I'm just trying to reveal the truth. Sometimes, honesty is hurt. But we have to accept it right? Better than we get a lie.

It's overcast here. And suddenly the rain falls down slowly. Almost always like this. Every time i remember about him (a person in my past) the cloud turns to gray. Like now. Even nature knows how's my feeling about him. Sadness, hopeless, untouchable, hurt, and losing. Or maybe it's just accidentally (try to be realistic). Who knows?

Do you ever feel what i felt? About how hard to forget a thing which is too sweet to be forgotten. A memory that will always saved inside your heart as an eternal secret. I guess everyone have it and can't forget it too. It doesn't mean you still have thought back to the past as well. So, i'm wondering if i was wrong or not.

Dunno anything. Just don't think about it anymore.


Recently remembered

Sunday, October 31, 2010

last night dream

hey bloggers. how's your halloween? i think it should be pleasant :)

mommy just backed from buying new soft lens for me. my lens was torn yesterday. maybe coz my long nails or i was not carefully when cleaned it. that's why i used glasses to school yesterday. many people can't recognized me. they surprised i used glasses. they teased me that there was a new student yesterday. haha

it's rainy days here. kinda chilly. don't know if this caused my dream last night or not. you'll never guess what's my dream. and i think i no need to tell you what's it exactly. the point is. that dream brought me to my past and started a flashback. i told harris after woke up. he said that i don't need to think about it. i listen to him. but feels like i can't stop thinking. moreover in the weather like this. cloudy. this weather saves so many memories and relate with him. if weather like this comes, it always brings that memories come to me too.

eventhough like that.

i love today's weather. really love it. since i known HIM.


weather full of memories

Sunday, September 26, 2010

1st love

Once in a while 
You are in my mind 
I think about the days that we had 
And i dream that these would all come back to me 
If only you knew every moment in time 
Nothing goes on in my heart 
Just like your memories 
How I want here to be with you 
Once more 

You will always gonna be the one 
And you should know 
How I wish I could have never let you go 
Come into my life again 
Oh, don't say no 
You will always gonna be the one in my life 
So true, I believe i can never find 
Somebody like you 
my first love 

Once in awhile 
Your are in my dreams 
I can feel the warmth of your embrace 
And I pray that it will all come back to me 
If only you knew every moment in time 
Nothing goes on in my heart 
Just like your memories 
And how I want here to be with you 
Once more
 

You will always be inside my heart 
And you should know 
How I wish I could have never let you go 
Come into my life again 
Please don't say no 
Now and forever you are still the one 
In my heart 
So true, I believe I could never find 
Somebody like you 
My first love   

You will always gonna be the one 
And you should know 
How I wish I could have never let you go 
Come into my life again 
Oh, don't say no 
You will always gonna be the one 
So true, I believe I could never find 
Now and forever

♥♥♥♥ 


how precious 1st love for me. but it has passed. there is no "once more". and yes, "How I wish I could have never let you go" at that time :'( now, please don't let me live with all our sweet memories. let me start my new life. and you too.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

My first love,My ex

Have you ever heard? That first love will never can be forget whole life? Have you already felt the love for the first time? How worth first love for you? Does it meaningless? Did you ever lost your first love? How did it happen?


2008...

I met my first love in that year. The year that full of love and sugar. The january told everything. He is the reason why i was so glad to go to school everyday. He really changed my life. All! Totally! I was a very spoil girl before. And he is the one who made me mature like now. He teached me everything. About how cruel the life is. I was so thankful to God that met me with him. Even the farewell of us did not so good or maybe can be said terrible. The farewell will not happen if he didn't go to college overseas. Or that will be never happen if we wasn't different 4 years old.

It has already two years.

All have done. So let it past. I live today not for my past. But for my future. Stop step back and start to walk in front. Reach my dream like him too. Leaving all the sweet memories. Move from dreamland to the real world.

I always pray to God for give him happiness. Keep him healthy and safely. I hope he enjoy his life there. And in the future,till we meet again. He has already become a very success male. I will smile,shake his hand and say to him.

"Congrats,brother. You have done what you have to do. Very nice to meet you again. Welcome hometown back"

Friday, July 30, 2010

hi my sweetheart





Hi harney..
I dedicate this only for you,my lovely boy... :)
iamonlyloveyou*...

Dear all readers...
I want to share about
my love story to all of you...I hope you'll have a sweet love story like me... :D

This picture in the right is my photo with my boyfriend...
It taken by my bestfriend named Suwina when sem one exam dated 30 november 2009 at 09:16..
It has been a long time,right??hehe
At that time we were still in PDKT time...hahaha
I was so shy talk to him so close like that; as he was shy too...
We are in upstairs coridor of school after finished exam..
We showed our childhood photos..

I was so nervous when talk to him...
My hands was so cold and my face felt so warm...hahaha
But it flowed well...

I always say that he's my doctor..
Do you want to know why??
Coz he is the one who take me out from the darkness of my life caused losing my first love... :(
*I don't want to discuss this again...:'(*
He made me realize that there are other love that more sincere than my ex love...
It's HIM...
He loved me with so patient to wait for me till i can forget my ex and let him to stay in my heart...
He never ever give up to wait for me...
His love touch me a lot...
Day by Day i feel love for him...
Till now he's the king in my heart and i guess it'll be forever...
I love him so much...
You're my everything,har..

I don't want to lose him...
I'll keep our relationship well..

Hope this story will have mean to you,readers...
"When you love someone...just be brave to say that you want him to be with you..
When you hold your love...don't ever let it go...
Or you will lose your chance to make your dream comes true...."

Don't give up to find your true love,all!!....