February.!

the first day of february. hope this month's better. everything's easy for me to pass :/

well, i have some problems. and i'm sick now. Huueee. not easy to face all in condition like this. i've no place to tell. maybe i have. but i don't wanna disturb anyone. make people burdened.

everything has changed. my mistake, didn't realize it all this time. time flies and past life is just become memories. although i expect everything is still same. i can't stand living like this. i wanna my life back to me. there are so many things we should fix. dunno how much strength i need, how much tears should falling out, or how hurt it would be. i don't care. as long as i don't lose "that warmth".

ummmm....,, talking about sick, it really drives me crazy. i'm thin and sick makes me thinner. Omg. wanna gain my weight but what i get is the opposite. ckck

i can't sleep whole night. because of coughing and breathless.

daddy has called doctor and the doctor has already came to checked me. the medicines i should drink are so many. tablets are everywhere on my desk. == life like this is so sucks.

i can't eat my CNY cake too. it looks so yummy. Huaaaa. wanna eat. everything looks so delicious. my house is full of CNY foods. 3 boxes of oranges, 2 box of can drinks, 4 bottles of coca-cola, 3 cakes (2 clover & euro), cookies, chocolates, candies, bika ambon, 2 lapis legit or spekut. umm,, how to write it yeah? haha sorry, dunno readers. hihi and more.

some of them are from daddy's relatives. they sent us.

so tempt me.

 

hope i'll get well soon :/

new days